"Tears run down my cheeks like an odd, sweet embrace. It’s not much, but it shows the love that is hard to express anymore. I rarely think about it, trying to keep it locked up somewhere deep inside so my face doesn’t become a river. The sorrow that captures me every once in a while has got me in a lock down. Forcing me to flip through old memories and to view life at true reality.Of course, life never stays the same for long and truthfully, it would be a sad thing if it did. That doesn’t mean I don’t miss things from my past. They are a part of what’s locked deep down inside me, forming the person I am today...."
Some might call it my cyber life. lol. Its the world wide web(www). You know what I'm talking about. My internet was taken away from me because of a power surg at my house a couple days ago. Right now, I have no idea when it will come back either. It blew a couple of things around the house and right when life gets busy it seems that things stop working like... technology. HA! I am at the library trying to stay sane for a lil bit. lol. jk
I'm dreading the night because I'm all alone again. The strength to survive this one is not here. Sleep is my best and worst enemy because I want to escape from reality, but I know it won't happen. The nightmares will come and keep me here locked in my cage of solitude. I yearn for a change of scenery from these four lonely walls.The walls surrounding me would serve a better purpose if only they would fall down. Feeling sorry for myself has grown old and made my inside numb. Chills sink through my body as my heart and mind go colder and colder. The seclusion is like a winter night as the cold rips right through your coat and freezes your bones. The noise might seem more like music if there was company to share the sounds with. Least I know I would be able to hear if my name is called. Peace of mind and confidence is fleeting the more I’m here. Loneliness wouldn't be so bad if I couldn't see the free ones outside. Freedom, oh freedom, I've lost the meaning of your name. I long for the day when your companionship is strong enough for inseparability.
I am cracking up at Justin Bieber's, the newest pop teen artist, new song "Never say never". Very good message of perseverance, but it's still just kids singing right? Idk. The song features Jaden Smith, son of Will Smith. Also, Jaden is the star with Jackie Chan on the new The Karate Kid movie that comes out in theaters June 11. From the movie trailer it seems like it will be a sweet fam movie of victory and perseverance.
A hint of the song lyrics go like this:
Now he's bigger than me, Taller than me. And he's older than me, And stronger than me. And his arms a little bit longer than me. But he ain't on a JB song with me! I be trying a chill They be trying to side with the thrill. No pun intended, was raised by the power of Will. Like Luke with the force, when push comes to shove. Like Cobe with the 4th, ice water with blood. I gotta be the best, and yes We're the flyest. Like David and Goliath, I conquered the giant. So now I got the world in my hand, I was born from two stars So the moon's where I land. I will never say never! (I will fight) I will fight till forever! (make it right) Whenever you knock me down, I will not stay on the ground. Pick it up, Pick it up, Pick it up, Pick it up, up, up, And never say never.
I just came back from the local parade in a lil village/town down the road. It was a nice change this year to not be in the parade because I used to be each year for the color guard with the boy scouts. Plus, I got a hand full of candy, but alas I cannot( should not) eat it right now because I am seeing the dentist tomorrow. lol.
I came home and decide to try for some random new profile pics too...
Country lights mean there are no goodbyes. I just may not be here all the time. The shadows prove I’m looking at a full moon while I wish I was beside you. There isn't much around here, just a lonely boy full of dreams. And these words may have more behind them then what it may seem. Alone, yes, but thinking far deeper. Standing alone in a dark moonlit world in shades of black and blue.It's the little things that bring my mind back to you.
