Relationship

One of my favorite past times and hobby is writing. Mainly it's just my thoughts, a point I'm trying to make or random inspirations. I really love it and enjoy it. It's one way for me to get my feelings and emotions out.

I was in the vehicle driving someplace( I don't remember where and when. Who needs those details anyways) and this program/talk show/thingy was talking about raising kids and stuff. I usually wouldn't listen to something like that since I'm not a parent and don't have kids, but my Mom was in the car and was listening. The person said that kids, mainly teenagers to be exact, don't just want the parent to be a parent but to also have a real relationship with them. So with meditation on that and circumstances in my life I wrote the following:


This is what makes me apathetic sometimes. All I see is you saying "No"! The great minds of our age say we want and need a relationship. I know you are caring and always want my best, but if not now then someday there will be a time for me to make some decisions. A relationship is a two way road and I'm only seeing a one way sign. If something doesn't change I'm afraid I'm going to see a dead end sign. I could tear down any sign I see, but they are there for a reason. I feel like your choking the life out of me. Are you trying to squash my other relationships cause you are jealous? Things are continually happening and life keeps going and no one can stop that. I'll honor you as best I can, but that doesn't mean I'll do everything you want. Who are you to pick and choose who I create relationships with? This can only get better or worse. I will not let this keep going the way it is. I may act a little odd, but I'm not you am I? I need a relationship. Do you understand that? You don't seem to understand much of me anymore. We may never see everything the same, but we never were meant to. You may say this is just me finding myself, growing maturer or who knows what. That could be part of it, but I will just say its me realizing we are missing a relationship.

JDM