Talk/Walk

Talk. Sweet talk. You talking to me. Talk to me.

I'm behind the wheel and I think of what I should say.
The confusion of me won't stop me from having a good day.
There are ten cars on the road tonight. Number eleven would be me.
I got music streaming in my ear. And guess what. Its sweet, so sweet.

Talk. Sweet talk. You talking to me. Talk to me.

I wasn't running away, but I wonder, I wonder if I should.
Wild thoughts like these go through my head while I sit on the hood.
My head is resting on my arms. Curled up by myself without you.
Is getting over this the right thing that I should do?

But I hear you... Talk. Sweet talk. You talking to me. Talk to me.
But I feel you... Walk. Slowly walk. Walk next to me. Walk with me.

Tell me the truth. The whole truth. Tell me nothing but the truth.
So help me God I will not dare make it something it's not.

Talk. Sweet talk. You talking to me. Talk to me.
Walk. Slowly walk. Walk next to me. Walk with me. - JDM

40 of me

40


where was your default picture taken?my fb right now was from the park
what's your middle name?david
your current relationship status?single and not looking for anyone else
does your crush like you back?sure
what is your current mood?content, happy
what color of shirt are you wearing?grey
what color socks are you wearing?none right now
Missing something?sure
if you could go back in time and change something, what would you do?things ive said
if you must be an animal for one day, what animal would you be?monkey cause we could throw poo at ppl and not get in trouble, lion to catch the helpless animals, mouse to go place others cant go, etc
ever had a near death experience?not so much
something you do a lot?facebook, read, sleep ,etc
the song stuck in your head?none right now, but im flipping thru songs, flyleaf currently
who did you copy and paste this from?susie
name someone with the same birthday as you?idk
when was the last time you cried? two nights ago
have you ever sung in front of a large audience?sorta
if you could have one super power what would it be?idk
what's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?clothes, face
what do you usually order from starbucks?carmael latte
what's your biggest secret?why would i tell
favorite color?black
do you still watch kiddie shows or tv shows?some ppl call it that
what's on your walls?any random thing
what are you?im a male, 18, sometimes quiet, etc
do you speak any other language?i took a little spanish. like never use it
what's your favorite smell?perfume, cologne, food,etc
Describe your life in one word.mellow
have you ever kissed in the rain?no
what are you thinking about right now? awesome jonas brothers song (:
what should you be doing?looking at my Briona's pesents?
who was the last person that made you upset/angry?not sure..
how often do u talk to God?not enough
do you like working in the yard?sometimes
if you could have any last name in the world, what would you want?mine
do you act differently around the person you like?no
what is your natural hair color?brown
who was the last person to make you cry?no one

I Wish

I wish I was by her side. I wish I could tell her... I wish nothing would ever separate the space between us. I wish the time would never end. I wish you were in my arms. I wish I could tell you those three magic words. I wish I was by her side. I wish...

-JDM

A.Y.C.

I am back from AYC. My brothers and I got home around 10:15 last night. This past week has been awesome, the best ever! I had lots of fun meeting new ppl, seeing old friends, hanging out, playing games, great services, food, Bible Bowl, etc. I am glad to say I won Bible Bowl this year keeping the legacy alive with 1,685 points. I think my favorite two sermon titles were Failure is not Final and Having a Meaning Devotional Life. One great thing I'll never forget is the ride home with Sam, Keith and Josh. We stopped for gas and food and we ate at Wendy's. :) I won't go into the whole story but lets just say that the ppl working there will never be the same. lol. This week has been better than I ever hoped.

I thought I'd also share some good lines from camp from this year and past years.

"Did that fall over?"
"It's not about you, its about me."
" Those dirt stains on your mattress, they're not dirt."
" We'll all fall asleep and it won't matter."
" Go to bed"
" This is what dreams are made of."
" Must be nice..."


The guys watching a movie the night before camp

Pam and I at the banquet

Ryan and I

Some of the great ppl at camp :)

Sit still

You cannot imagine my xcitement for next week. I can already sit here long enough to type this ( plus I need to finish packing today). A.Y.C. is one of my favorite times of the year. I think it falls maybe ahead of my b-day cuz who cares if your a year older anyways. :) I'm listening to upbeat music getting my adrenaline rush stirred up. CAMP IS HERE!!!

Summer Fun

I love this season. Seeing the lightning bugs in the night sky. Able to sleep under the stars in the warm breeze. The heat is a warm welcome from the winter freeze. During the day, able to soak up the sunshine. Making a goal to work on your tan once again this year. Hitting the beach and water with enthusiasm. Trying to avoid the three leaved branches on your hikes through the forest. Excited to see God's green creation in full life. You can't help but feel alive like everything around you. Don't forget the fireworks on the holidays. Watching a painted sky with those close to you. What is not to like about this sweet time of year with summer break and the blessings of it. The green grass and colorful flowers are showing their glory. I think this is my favorite season. - JDM

Cedar

Yesterday Sam, Mel, Rosie and I went to Cedar Point. Score! Nothing like rides to set your heart pounding, screaming your head off and eating the fun food. :) Sad to say that Rosie lost her celly, hopefully they can find it. Also, I am sure that Rosie is now convinced to start a blog of her own and realize the necessity of it. Every ride we went on was totally awesome in its own way beyond description. I think it was one of the funest days of this year.

Update

1. I love the feel of myself being clean shaved.
2. I love cereal.
3. I am excited for A.Y.C.
4. I am excited for Cedar Point( tomorrow).
5. I worked 30 hours this week.
6. I figure I shall be tired the rest of my life.
7. Thought I would share some memories from my family reunion...

we have his tradition to go to the park playground and take pics.

Me taking a break from the swings

Nathan, Joshua, Samuel, and I on the tubes of dispair( pic for our new album cover. lol)

Josh's fav pic
Thee ladder :)
old pose

Sam and Mel

Mel being beautiful

Josh and I on the tubes of dispair

Wipe your hands, shake it off Then you stand, then you stand - Rascal Flatts

Inside 'em

Come and follow me, my child

Have you ever found someone you really, really, really liked? why so many reallys??
Last person you gave a hug to (not family)?idr
What was the first thing you did this morning? talked on the phone, keith was my alarm clock lol( "Night is coming...")
What do you hear right now?the hum of the computer
Do you think somebody's in love with you?Family,Friends, etc
How are you feeling?okay
Do you think anyone stalks you?haha
Do you say sorry first? i guess
Think of the last time you were REALLY angry, when was it? hmm. maybe wednesday.. but i wasnt really angry, i think it was monday
Name something you are doing tonight? Not sure yet
Will tomorrow be better than today? Ill be with family, you tell me
At this very moment, what exactly are you doing? watching hogans heroes
Who were you last in a bed with? my stuffed animals
Has a girl sat on your bed before?like sisters
Do you sleep with your door open or closed? Closed
Ever kissed someone else's boyfriend/girlfriend? NO
Could you go the rest of your life without drinking alcohol? DUH
How many girls do you trust? not many
Do you curse in front of your parents? No, never every anywhere
At what age do you want to be married?after colledge, who knows when
Are you one of those twilight crazy people? ive only read the first book, idc
Expecting something to change in the next month? some things will
How much money did you spend last month? over fifty im sure
Where's your significant other? idk
What color are your eyes? brown
What was the last thing you cried over and who saw you cry? umm last time i cried no one saw it
Is there someone on your mind that shouldn't be?no
Do you like to listen to the radio when you are in the car?yes
Who were you with the last time you went to the movie theater?Bryan
Honestly has anyone ever seen you in your underwear? thats a given
Do you miss someone? yes
Who else is in the room with you?No one
How is your hair right now? w/e
Will you be up before 7 am tomorrow? i might be
What school did you go to for 8th grade?homeschooled
What did you do today?slept, studied, cleaned the car,cleaned the one house, etc
Did you speak to your mother today?yeah
Three days from now will you be in a relationship? dont ask me
Is it easy to make you cry? not really
Do you consider yourself lucky? luck is only for cookies
Lose a best friend lately?idk
Have you told anybody you loved them today?no
Do you take walks often? walks.. ha no
Are your eyes the same color as your moms or dads? my moms i think
Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell anything to? mostly
Are you afraid of roller coasters? well i shall practice monday and get back to you
Do you care what people think of you?some times
Where will you be 12 hours from now? hopefully in bed sleeping
Who was the last person you talked to before you fell asleep? either josh or trent
Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk? i like both, i love chocolate
Do you sleep on your stomach? rarely

Thank God

I'm up just a little early, but I thank God that I have been able to work the last couple days. I am helping my mom's cousin roofing. Hopefully, it looks like we will finish up today and I will have worked over 25 hours. The down side to this is that I have to get up a little after 6 each morning and if you know me being a teenager, it kills. I'm tired already and I've only been up 45 minutes. What I want to do is crawl back into my warm, soft bed and forget my life and dream of a place that dosen't wake me up just for work, food, studying, regular life, etc. I miss the days when I could sleep in. lol.

I Know.

I don't know what all is going through your head. If this is nothing then just let me speak and I'll be done with it. I don't know all the circumstances, but I know it is a possibility and even then it shouldn't be. I just want to end today. I'm tired, worn out, and mad at myself for something I can't remember. Heat is pouring off of me and I'm shivering. I say to myself " if only...". Will things go back to how they were? I don't deserve it. I heard the hurt, the frustration, the let down in your voice. I know what should and shouldn't be said. I know what should and shouldn't be thought. I know what a jerk is. I know what I am. My head is in my hands, my teeth are grit, I have a scowl on my face, thinking. I'm thinking, "Scum bag, why did you have to go and screw that up?" Don't thinking I'm like that. I'm usually not like that. I hope you can agree. Do what you have to so I learn my lesson. I never ever want to do that again. Please forgive me for anything I've done. Good night. - JDM

Spending Time

Review:
The last couple days I've just hung around. Tuesday night, Josh and I went to the Yoder's for a bon fire and fun. Wednesday was just more hanging out and church. Thursday was Bible study, where I got to play Wii...fun fun fun. Friday, today, I painted more of the shed, weed- eated, studied bible bowl, and went to Cici's with one of my favorite families, the Collins. Had awesome fun in the arcade!
A song that I just listened to today, Spending Time, by Stellar Kart is in my mind.