I Know.

I don't know what all is going through your head. If this is nothing then just let me speak and I'll be done with it. I don't know all the circumstances, but I know it is a possibility and even then it shouldn't be. I just want to end today. I'm tired, worn out, and mad at myself for something I can't remember. Heat is pouring off of me and I'm shivering. I say to myself " if only...". Will things go back to how they were? I don't deserve it. I heard the hurt, the frustration, the let down in your voice. I know what should and shouldn't be said. I know what should and shouldn't be thought. I know what a jerk is. I know what I am. My head is in my hands, my teeth are grit, I have a scowl on my face, thinking. I'm thinking, "Scum bag, why did you have to go and screw that up?" Don't thinking I'm like that. I'm usually not like that. I hope you can agree. Do what you have to so I learn my lesson. I never ever want to do that again. Please forgive me for anything I've done. Good night. - JDM