Lost

Are you living two lives? Saying nothing but lies? I thought there was a connection. I thought we had something. I'm scared of what to believe from you. I want to have faith in you. Show me that all I'm hearing, all I'm feeling, isn't true. I just want to come back to you. Is there any hope? I got a million things screaming at me. Should I confront this head on, wait, let you approach, ignore it? I thought it meant more than that. Ugh! Come on. You push a man's patience beyond sanity. I want this to all come out to a "No, never hunny". If only things were perfect. It sure felt like it 24 hours ago. If only things could be the way they were. Now I'm wishing on every 11:11 I see. I feel lost, so lost. Lost in my emotions, lost between truth and lies, lost of what to say. I'm lost in the questions. Why do things have to be this way? I see us standing there, in the alley, sharing our moment. That's what I want to feel forever. That's what I want to share for eternity. Am I lead to believe that that was the end? Has this already been over? Do you still feel the same way? I don't know what to do now. I will take any blame that's due. You really are what I feel is lost. I don't want to lose you. -JDM