Doubter

Not sure if it's all in my head or if it has captured my heart too. Did I ever have a complete trust? I have seen so many miracles and great wonders that my mind has grown callused to the truth. The mystery has covered me like a flood. I just cannot get past the confusion. So much as happened in such a short time. We warned Him trouble was coming. He had to know it. Why would He walk right into their trap? The tricksters have been planning this for years. You could see the anger and jealousy in their eyes as much as their fears. They retaliate out of rejection. They hated His guts and got Him where they wanted Him. Murdering Him like real murderers aught to be put away. Now it's been two days since they took Him away and I'm hating life. My all was taken away. This darkness surrounding me fills my mind with doubts and despair. Why is this happening? Will I ever see my Friend again?

Doubter by JDM